Poetic Dose: Para Kay Fidel / For Fidel

"Para 'to sa pinakamabait at pinakamatalinong taong nakilala ko.  Sige na nga ... cute na rin."

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Sa aking Fidel ...

Handog sana'y makatang tula
Nais pukawin ang iyong interes

Ngunit ikaw ang tunay na makata
At ako ay nagpapanggap lamang

Puspos ng mga damdaming
Di man lang alam ang ngalan

Kapos sa matatalinhagang mga salita
Sa iniibig na sariling wikang


So I will speak to you in the only way I know how,
hoping I move your heart somehow ...

For Fidel

Release.

I needed some form of release

from this gnawing feeling 

inside of me.

Deja vu.

Have I been here before?

Heard those words?  

Spoken those words?

Wishful thinking.

Do I hope to be there?

Hope to hear those words - from you?

Wish to speak them - to you?

Tremble.

Not merely my heart

But my soul

in its deepest core.

Fall apart.

My carefully built world

All I ever knew

and believed in.

Come apart.

Only now

After so many years

My one true love.

Undone.

I have come undone

My one true broken heart.

My undoing ... and yours?

(I loved you, too.  "Hanggang ngayon naman")

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