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Sunday, July 21, 2019

Coming Back Home To Me

Tell me of the hidden struggles
All the unnamed pains
And I will tell you
Of the glorious view from here.

Mt. Pamitinan


I remember Monsignor Gabriel telling me once, "I don't know why they call it mid-life crisis, when it is such a beautiful phase." I've been stuck in "crisis" for years. And, although it's been a hell of a rough ride so far, it's definitely been beautiful.

A month ago, I attended a seminar-workshop called Reparenting the Child Within (RCW), which I had been trying to fit into my schedule since February.  It took months for my schedule to align with the RCW weekend.  But, as the facilitator mentioned on the first day, it was the perfect batch (and time) for me.  From the time I started on my mid-life journey, I had been on a self-healing quest.  RCW was the perfect culmination.  It reinforced my learnings, thus far; demystified the process; and closed out the loopholes.  It is an essential I would recommend to everyone (from age 25) --- regardless of life phase they are in.

The 2.5-day weekend seemed too long for a seminar-workshop.  But it was one jam-packed weekend with the strength of a million therapy sessions.  I will not go through my entire experience and spoil it for you guys.  Let me just say, that it was a Coming Home to ME.

In that weekend I learned:
  • I was brought into this world whole and full of grace ... 
  • and I can return to my original wonder child.
  • I am wounded, but not broken.
  • I am my responsibility and nobody else's.
  • I can only give if I am filled ...
  • and I can (and must) fill me.
  • I know my truths ...
  • and I will live them ...
  • because I can (fix me)
  • because HE has given me all I need to be beautiful Me. 

Come to think of it, it felt like finally unlocking that treasure chest you searched far and wide, and even dove underwater for ... to find a mirror inside.  However anti-climactic or cliche the weekend plot seemed to be, it was only then that I truly felt fully unwedged from my being stuck.  

As it turned out, the only way forward is inward.

Friday, January 04, 2019

Poetic Doses: 361 to 365 And Then Some

#RayaBlabbers #365DaysOfPoetry

These are the final verses and then some
For the 2018 year-long commitment;
This year, for myself I will reserve
Will share only chosen sentiments;
I commit to a project that deserves
And allows me to be in my element.


361

Night came to me
Draped in stars
She offered me the Moon
Nestled upon her palms
Dazed by the grandeur about her
I took the Moon in haste
And failed to see
Her true beauty (so plain in front of me).


362

Come on now,
He said,
Pick up the fishing line.

(I have a surprise at the other end!).


363

Where do old toys go?
I wonder how they feel
On the first day
The children stop coming?
And as the days turn into weeks
Do their hearts start breaking?
Do they stay and wait,
Or do they leave and walk away?
To find a better (new) kid
To care for,
Or realize there is not one
Quite as magical as their kid.

I wonder if they are better off
At toy heaven instead.


364

Sometimes, all the heart needs is a surprise little nudge to come alive once more.


365

One full year passed
Another year begins
Leave all that hinders in the past
Open your hearts to dream and hope again.

***

I will set the world on fire
One dream at a time.


AND THEN SOME ....

There is a different calm walking under a blanket of stars;
As if the universe is whispering its wisdom.
On cue, the stars started falling (meteor showers!);
For a brief moment we were children silenced in awe.
Then the Sun came;
First, the gold linings then the warmth.

***

Nothing speaks best of hope, new life and new beginnings than the breaking of dawn.
It is the singular moment when one inevitably feels and believes with his/her whole heart that nothing, absolutely nothing, is impossible.









***
Seasons come and go;
The Sun shines and sets;
What seems immovable and unmoved,
Glows warm and softens with the Sun's touch.















***

Mountains always struck me as having such grandeur that demanded awe and respect without need of being boastful.  They are simply and effortlessly magnificent.  In their presence, I am always reminded of my littleness.  Yet, on their shoulders, they show me what I can do and who I can be.






***

There is not one moment exactly like another;
and within each is a beauty that can never be replicated.
Cherish, truly see and be in the moment.









***

Somber empty streets
Fill my heart with peace
When I walk with you
My hand safe in yours.

***

Through mountains, rivers and seas
Farther than the eyes can see
The mighty dragon flew
In search of something true
And found there is only one
Who touch he would ever want
And so he returned
Sadly, to the house he burned.

***

We loved briefly
Swiftly
And it was enough
But only for a moment.

***

It comes spilling out
Rushing like a raging river
Despite the promise
Not to think nor feel
My muse is you
And the eternal dream of us
Caught in the wicked cycle
Of pain and beautiful poetry.

***

Oh, the joy of long showers
And the delicious feeling
Of healing water flowing through
Every hidden and broken part.

***

Puso kong palalo
Wari mo'y salahilo
Ang totoo'y
Puso ay pagod
Sa paulit-ulit
Na pag-urong at sulong
Ng salawaha't tuso
Mong puso.

***

That I might not be a mere catcher of dreams or a keeper of memories.
No.  Let me be a dancer of life and a mover of mountains.

***

No. No. No.
One does not catch a cloud and pin it down.
One runs with it and basks in its shade ...
Before it grows heavy and rains over you.

***

Manog, Manong,
Where do you go
to catch these falling stars?

Tell me.  Tell me.
Are these hopes and dreams falling?
Or wishes coming true?

Please, please!
Catch me a star, bright and fiery
Let it fall on me and light me on fire.

***

Waiting?
Or searching?
I do not know anymore;
But I am rooted where I stand
Until I find the courage
Until I am compelled
   to finally move.

***

Maybe
here is enough
for now.

***

In this dimly lit room
Peppered in dust from the years
I hear only echoes now
Or distant memories.

(I am here.  Still.)

***

I am tempest
I am storm
I weild fire with my rod
I will not be calm
I shall rage
Untril you fathom the depths
Of my pain.

***

I want to be where you are;
On this boat, we will sail far.

***

Such endless capacity for love;
Such endless need for love.


Monday, December 31, 2018

I Climbed Mountains to Learn These

In my previous blog, I mentioned how hiking has been very helpful in terms of distilling the barrage of thoughts that constantly plague my overthinking brain.


These are some of the things that are not rocket science, not profound and not even new; but I, literally, had to climb mountains to learn and truly grasp what they meant.
  • Start  and end with a prayer.  Make sure to pray for good weather! (San Rafael comes in very handy here).
  • Prepare.  Find out what you can about the trail; check weather conditions; bring what you will need.
  • You'll get there.
  • Take the first step.  Then, the next.  One step at a time.
  • Know your capabilities and your limits.
  • Take risks, but safety first.
  • Take breaks, as frequently as you need them. ("Let's take 5!").  Breathe deeply.
  •  Enjoy the view.  Enjoy the journey. Don't focus too much on the trail.  Look up every now and then. Look back, too.  Some of the nicest views I've seen are from looking back.
  • Hydrate and eat smartly.
  • Pack light.  The hike is so much easier without excess baggage.
  • It is not a competition. Respect your own speed and others'.
  • Choose your company well. Ideally, someone (individuals) --
    • headed in the same direction
    • who makes you comfortable in your own skin (read: someone you can be totally honest with and vice versa)
    • who understands and respects you (note: not necessarily someone who thinks exactly like you do)
    • you have similar interests with, but also different enough to expand you
    • who energizes you (a.k.a. NOT toxic)
  • Interact.  You will not always meet these individuals again.  Learn from them.  Share what you can.
  • Respect differences.  Remember that we are all looking at the world through different lenses.
  • Lend a hand to those who need it.
  • Ask for help, when you need it. 
  • Stretch your limits. You can always do more than you thought you could.
  • When you feel like giving up, weigh your options.  Check how far you've gone vs. how far you are from the summit.  And, sometimes, giving up is not an option.  (We don't have helicopters to pick you up and fly you back to the jump off point).
  • When you're lost, stay put, call for help and wait for help to come.
  • Trust and follow your guides.

In a nutshell:  It is the journey, not the destination.

Do not focus too much on getting to the summit or the destination.  It is often in the trails where I find the most interesting things and views.  This is one of my regrets from a recent hike I took with a friend (especially since it's a place I will likely not have a chance to go back to).  He (and other friends who have been there) said that the farthest lagoon and another trail are unremarkable, and the trek itself would be challenging because it's muddy. Now I am wondering if  I missed out on something beautiful along the way, just because I didn't even give it a chance. 

 


Take the time to fully experience the hike.  Sit on that rock. Lean on a tree. See, smell, touch and feel your surroundings.  

Stop and chat with the people in the communities you pass by.  Ask about their life.  In these conversations, I marvel at how simple and happy their lives are. Yes, there is a lot of difficult manual labor.  But they do not have the kind of worries or stress that keep them awake through the night.  Sometimes I want to live like them. 

Start that conversation and get to know the other hikers.  This is a challenge for me.  The thing is, I find small talk tiresome and a tad useless, so I don't often engage.  I'm amazed at how some people can stretch small talk for hours, but then you walk away not really knowing the other person at all.  So, strike up a real conversation! The truth is, I'm not a stellar conversation starter either.  It is much easier for me to listen to people or answer questions.   I guess it comes from sometimes feeling uncomfortable with direct/too-personal-for-comfort questions from people I hardly know. I don't want to put people in the same uncomfortable situation, so I just wait for them to share whatever they are comfortable sharing.  You can imagine how this becomes quite a problem when I'm stuck with a fellow introvert.  Thus, I have resolved to be brave and start real conversations with fellow hikers I want to get to know better.  



The summit will be there when you get there.  True.  It is a different high reaching the summit.  But it's only as fulfilling as the effort it took to get there.  Some summits are worth it.  Some summits are not.  But the journey itself, the sights we see, the conversations and stories of fellow hikers and the experiences we go through together --- these are ALWAYS worth it.  These are the ones that we relive and retell to others after the hike.  So, just relax , slow down a bit and enjoy the trek.  




(Photos from our Mt. Manalmon hike with #TrailAdventours #ShareLifeOutdoors )

Sunday, December 30, 2018

Hiking: A Trigger And Therapy For The Overthinker

(DISCLAIMER:  What follows is MY opinion, based on personal reflection.  Not backed by any scientific study or analysis).

I read from a friend's IG post:
"One of the many things to love about hiking is that it's easy to be in a musing mood when in the wild.  We talk less, walk more (and in the process, meditate more)." Jayvee Tanawan on IG

It dawned on me that THAT is probably why I enjoy it so much.  Whenever I feel overwhelmed, I feel a need to go on a hike.  I don't always get the answers, but I get clarity.

Photo by:  Ryan Berza
You can go one-on-one with a friend or in a group with familiar and/or unfamiliar people and socialize a bit. But there will always be that inevitable lull when each one: first, gets lost in the beauty of nature; then, gets lost in their thoughts.  Thus, hiking is a trigger for overthinking.

BUT it's also a solution.  The menial task of walking/hiking combined with the beautiful open view helps an overthinker to declutter his/her thoughts and work through them slowly.

The rhythm of a slow (or even a brisk) hike reduces the rushed or panicky feeling an onslaught of thoughts can bring.  Moreso, the pace is completely at his/her control.  (Notice how a person's walking speed shows how relaxed or tensed or angry a he/she is).

The scenery and its mix of simple and complex elements serve as enough distractions to the overthinker, preventing him/her from spiraling or overthinking just one subject.


Plus, every company demands for some attention every now and then.  Sometimes a conversation with a hike buddy serves as a natural break from an overthinker's labyrinth brain.  Sometimes, a hike buddy is just the right person to help thresh out those infinite thoughts.



More importantly, nature has a way of evoking positive uplifting emotions; the most "negative" I felt was probably melancholy, but even that gave way to either hope or resolve eventually.  When you are faced with such unassuming grandeur, it is difficult not to feel God, the depth of His love and the truth in His promise.  There is nothing that cannot be fixed, resolved or found.  Everything is possible.

Photo by:  Ryan Berza

Photo by:  Ryan Berza

Of course, for it to work as  "therapy", it has to be the right level of difficulty and the right distance.  A hike that is too difficult or takes too long can be trying to the most patient person (and, if you run out of trail food, that can quickly escalate --- eep!).



So, if you or anyone you know is an overthinker and is thinking of giving nature hiking a chance, Start with the easy, established trails first (national parks are good bets). Then, work your way up, as  needed, to keep your senses and your soul engaged.  It will not give you all the answers you need, but it can set you on the right track or, at the very least, help empty your mind.  When we are empty, we give Him the opportunity to fill us up.








Thursday, November 01, 2018

KAPAYAPAAN: A Weekend About Peace (Part 2 - My Son's Hike #2)

(Side Note:  I come home from a business trip teeming with stories to share.  Then, I open my blog to realize, that I have yet to finish Part 2 of the "Kapayapaan Weekend". Shoots!)

September 30th was the schedule for our Mt. Hapunang Banoi hike, which my son was joining.  It was his 2nd hike after his graduation hike at Mt. Ayaas.  The night before the hike, he asked me what was the mountain's difficulty rating.  I said it was an easy 2.  And I believed that with my whole heart ... promise!

Hike day came and the trail guide gave us an overview, starting off with, "This is a rated 4 mountain in terms of trail difficulty ..."  At which point my son looked at me from across our little circle and exclaimed, "Mom, you lied!"  Needless to say, that was all the group needed for a good ice breaker.

The trek, although rated 4, was a technical hike.  It tested my son's perseverance and stretched his frustration threshold --- which is one of my objectives for taking him with me.  The second is to train him and build his self-confidence in terms of his balance.  The 3rd, and most important objective, is to bond with him over something we can both enjoy.


The trek met all 3 objectives, but not without a significant amount of grunting, whining and cramping from my son.  But I am grateful to have the unwavering support of everyone in our hike group, especially my hike buddy, my sister and our favorite sweeper, Matt.  They showed tremendous tolerance and patience for my son and boosted his morale with loads of encouragements, good humor and cheer.











At the summit, while my son clung for dear life atop one of the rugged rocks, he said to me, "Mom, this weekend was all about peace." 
"How so?"
"Yesterday was #Peacified which is peace with all people.  Today is peace with nature."
I smiled proudly at him, lost for words.
"Thank you, Mom.  This is worth it,"  he adds, while enjoying the breathtaking view.
(Heartmelt!)








What made me most proud, however, were the moments when I would offer a hand and he would tell me, "Mom, I'm trying to figure it out by myself.  I can do this. Please let me."  (Side story:  I was tickled at the thought that I told my Papa something similar when he was teaching me how to parallel park).  I worried that letting my son take his time would significantly slow us down, but I realized how important it was for him to learn this.  So, I let him maneuver the trail on his own with me, my hike buddy and our sweeper strategically positioned to ensure we can support him when needed.  It gave my son a sense of fulfillment and definitely increased his self-confidence. 

At the jump off point, he said, "Mom, I am so tired.  It's so hard, but it's worth it.  I'm happy. I can tell Teacher Yssa and my classmates about it!"

Indeed, it was worth it!

AND we made it back to the jump off point well ahead of the target time. 





Saturday, July 01, 2017

Daraitan sa Mt. Daraitan

Daraitan means "Tagpuan" in Filipino; "Rendezvous" in English.

It was, by far, the most difficult hike I've ever done. (Granted, I've done only three; but, still ...).  Whoever rated its torture level at 4/10 must be related to Legolas, because it definitely felt more like a 12/10.  It was an all-assault trail.  And I mean "assault" in its truest sense:  steep, literally vertical!

Exhibit 1 - Notice the angle of my head.  I'm looking up.

Exhibit 2 - No, that is not just the camera angle.  That virtual wall is the trail.

"Guys, it's going to be like this the rest of the way."

Ten minutes in, I was catching my breath and having an internal argument with my body, which kept screaming, "I told you, we should have done some cardio!"

Before I could internally scream back some form of rebuttal, one of our trail guides cheerfully (I swear, he could hear the internal argument and was mocking me) proclaimed, "Guys, it's going to be like this the rest of the way." I looked at him with the most stoic it's-no-big-deal look I could muster.  He smiled back, a giddy silly isn't-that-awesome! kind of smile.

I smiled back ... and mentally punched him.

Then we took our first break. I sat down, took a sip of water, breathed deeply and looked up.  That's when I first saw it --- the elegantly rustic charm of the trail.  Every nook and cranny was a perfect photo subject, just beautiful beyond words. The lush greenery all around, the damp earth riddled with big and small rocks.  All of these, for all their randomness, felt thoughtfully placed --- right where I needed them for footing, for gripping or support. (And I needed a lot of support.  The trail is not for the vertically-challenged!). I can't help but think that God had meticulously prepared the trail for me. He must have.

"Kaya pa?" (Still manageable?)

I am not going to lie.  I struggled.  As I said, the trail is not for the vertically-challenged.  I swear, I must've grown at least an inch from all the stretching and reaching I had to do.  Yes, I said God had strategically placed supports left and right; but, sometimes, He made me work for them.

A few times along the way, one of the trail guides would check up on me and ask, "Kaya pa?".  I smile and he gives me a thumbs-up.

I realized, God is like a trail guide.  He points me towards the right direction, but allows me to decide which route to take.  He lets me maneuver the challenges my way; but watches over me like a hawk, swooping down in a heartbeat anytime I need help.  There is a sense of fulfillment in accomplishing things my way; and a sense of security knowing that He has my back.  And, because of that, I have the confidence to stretch beyond my perceived limits and say, "Kakayanin" (I will manage).

"Take 5"

I appreciate that the group was a good mix of strong seasoned and eager rookie hikers.  The stronger ones were the alpha team, who set the pace for the group; while those of us who lacked in strength but made up in eagerness took the sweep and "forced" everyone to "stop and smell the roses".

The alpha team sprinted ahead, but waited for us at the rest areas.  Their initial bursts of energy afforded them longer rest periods.

As for us, we took it slow and steady with our assigned trail guide regularly allowing us to "Take 5".  The pace and the short breaks enabled me to enjoy the trail more.  It afforded me time (short but sweet) to look around and appreciate the breathtaking scenery --- because it's precisely the reason I hike.  In nature is where I feel closest to God.

"Take 5", hands down, was my favorite phrase for the day.

"Promise. It's worth it".

Legolas' cousin, the person who rated the hike 4/10 when it is more appropriately a 12/10, must have been inspired somehow.  If he/she hadn't rated Mt. Daraitan a 4/10, we wouldn't have taken it.  And, for all the torture - external and internal, it was definitely worth it.

Our trail guides kept us pumped with "Promise.  It's worth it", said a million times sporadically throughout the hike.  And we latched on to this promise, climbing, trudging on and hanging on for dear life with it.

When we broke through the summit, I caught my breath.  It was 380 degrees of picturesque mountains. It was worth it.




Then we started our trek down towards Tinipak River.  Just when I started asking myself why I was subjecting myself (my knees, especially) to sheer torture, one of the guides said, "Promise.  It's worth it --- even more than the summit" (Weh?).

We finally reached the river and were ready to jump in, when the guides said we needed to walk a bit more (which was really "a lot more").  To which one of us spoke what's on everyone's mind, "But there's the river right there!"



"Promise.  It's worth it."

So, like the good hikers that we were, we followed our trail guides towards a more secluded area, where cold water from the cave emptied out into the river.  There are no words to describe just how beautiful the spot was ... and we had it all to ourselves!





At the end of the hike, I finally understood and appreciated the silly giddy isn't-it-awesome! smile of one of our trail guides.

It is true what they say, the hardest climb (or trek down) is the most worth it.  And, when the trek gets particularly difficult and challenging, remember:  "Promise.  It's worth it."

It always is.

Friday, March 17, 2017

The Promise of Plenty



Obviously, our first trek left us on such a high, that we made a pact to make it a regular activity.  A month and a few days later, amidst our crazy busy schedules, we were back on the road at 3 am to conquer another peak - Mt. Marami (Plenty).

True to its name, Mt. Marami gave me, and everyone in our trail group, PLENTY.

There were plenty of trails that led to the summit and several other surrounding communities. It offered the full experience.  We had to go through forest trails, rivers, heat-exposed valleys, ravines, very narrow side-of-the-mountain-is-this-a-friggin'-trail trails, inclines and descents in varying degrees (some really close to 90 degrees) and a literal rock wall. A ROCK WALL.

Oh! And, yes, it took PLENTY of steps.  33,500, to be exact, according to my iPhone.  Needless to say, we also needed plenty of time to complete the trek.

So ... I, therefore, conclude, Mt. Marami definitely delivered.  And, because of that, I have plenty of "A-ha's" to share.

It pays to be prepared.

Call us nerds, competitive or committed, but, after our Mt. Batulao trek, we debriefed and talked about what we could do better.  
  1. Lip balm. I carried my lip balm in my most accessible pocket, so I could apply liberally anytime.  No windburns this time :)
  2. Good pair of trail shoes.  In Batulao, I wore a snug-fit trekking sandals which tortured my feet.  So, I invested on a pair of outdoor trail shoes (kapit, Salomon!), a size bigger than my actual shoe size.  A tip I got from trail guides and the trekker sales person who helped me at the shop.
  3. Compression socks are the bomb!  I threw in a pair of compression socks, which, without a doubt, helped reduce my feet's after-trail soreness.  Despite being a longer and more difficult trail, I was not an invalid the following day.
  4. Sleeves help.  I got some itchies from the tall weeds in Batulao, so I borrowed my sister-in-law's biking sleeves.  No itchies that left pocky dots on my arms.  Yey!
  5. Compact trekking backpack.  The bag I used in my first hike was much too big and heavy.  My back ached even though my hiking buddy adjusted it for me.  I'm glad my brother talked me into buying a more compact trekking backpack more suitable for my compact size.
  6. Hiking poles are a huge help.  We borrowed a pair of hiking poles which were a big help during the many ascents and descents.
  7. Music.  Everything is so much more pleasant with music!
Other than that, we had the standard trail food (can't go hungry), water, sunblock and cover ups.

Keep your eyes on the goal.

When we started our trek, our trail guides pointed at an obscure point, its highest point, on top of the mountain.  They said, that was where we were headed. 

What?! 

I fainted inside.  I really did.  

I wondered whether I would even make it halfway through.  But I took a deep breath and took my first step towards my goal.  While it looked daunting in the beginning, it helped a lot to look up every now and then and see where I was in reference to the summit.  It served as encouragement and motivation to see my progress.

The important lesson here is to measure progress in reference to my goal --- and not against other people's progress.  Progress, after all, is relative.  No two people would have exactly the same goals and timings to achieve them.  Comparing yourself to other people would only give you undue stress (and stress, they say, causes cancer).

Stop and take rests.

And, because the only person you are racing against is yourself, it is completely fine to stop and take rests.  As you catch your breath, take the time to breathe the fresh air and enjoy the sights.  Moreover, it is essential to rest, recover and rejuvenate yourself.  You'll be amazed at the momentum from the burst of renewed energy vs. trudging on drearily.

Most constraints are in your head.

The summit was composed of three separate rocks.  We had to traverse the side of the rocks to go from one to the other.  We had to climb the rock wall in order to get to the main summit (the bigger rock formation).  I thought to myself, "Great.  You always wanted to do wall climbing.  Well, here you go!"  

And, as if that wasn't enough, we came to a fissure in the rock.  I will have to jump across the gap.  I stopped, assessed the gap and decided out loud, "It's too wide for me. I'm too short.  I won't make the jump."  My friend didn't say anything.  He merely looked at me incredulously and shot a glance at our tiny 9-year old guide.

Right.

I jumped.

Help comes when you need it; sometimes, when you least expect it and from the most unlikely people.

On our descent, I was managing myself down the rock wall when I couldn't find my footing.  Out of nowhere, there was a hand outstretched towards me.  A trekker from another group helped me get down safely from the wall. And I'm glad, that instead of just muttering my appreciation, I looked up to give him a proper "thank you".  I found myself face-to-face with the first (and, probably, only) attractive non-gay male specimen in the trails that day. (Thank you, Lord!)

No, we did not have time to exchange anything more than the standard thank-you-you're-welcome dialogue. 

Perhaps on the next trail.

Ask for help.

Because Mt. Marami had plenty of paths, it was so easy to get lost.  A few times we lost track of our other groupmates on the forks in the paths. The instructions from our trail guides were to either stop and wait for help or call out for help vs. trying to figure it out on our own.  Faster and safer.

I realized it's a sound advise for life in general. How many times have we tried to proudly figure things out our own and found ourselves going around in circles?

Trials bind.

When we started out the hike, we all stayed within our little groups.  As the hike progressed and the trail became more challenging, the groups slowly merged - supporting and encouraging each other, finding humor in the arduous trails.  At the end of the trek, a number of us gave each other high-fives and sat together around a sari-sari store for our most satisfying no-frills meal.

Make connections.

The trek took 10 to 11 hours to complete.  That was a lot of time spent around strangers, ample time to make connections beyond the usual small talk and courtesy helps offered.  The good thing about trekking is that it forces you to interact with different people. Depending on how fast or slow you are, you get a chance to talk to different individuals within or even outside of your group.  

I got to know our junior local trail guide who immediately won my heart.  I found out our Australian member is actually taking a break from her masters (or doctorate) studies to do some volunteer work here in the Philippines.  The owner of one of the houses who had an abundance of buko does not actually sell buko because it's much to heavy to transport.  They also travel farther to than the nearby town to do business in order to earn more.

When you focus too much on speed and finishing faster, aside from ending up spent too soon, you also miss out on making meaningful connections.  No one is chasing you.  Enjoy the trek.

Not all paths are created equal, but each one has a unique lesson to offer.

Mt. Marami has several paths.  They say all paths eventually lead to the summit.  Some just take longer, while some are shorter.  Some are more difficult.  Some are scenic.  Some go through communities ... and who knows what kind of connections we could have made with the locals there?

Each path offers something unique to the entire experience.  Each one has a valuable lesson to teach. Each path will build you and help you unlock capabilities you never knew you had.    No path is a waste of time.

So, no matter what path you are on now, don't fret.  You'll get there --- where and when you should be.

Where God is, Life is Beautiful.

The trail boasts of a majestic ancient tree by the river, several patches of bamboo groves (one of which had a cathedral-like canopy of bamboos), rows of weeds with brightly-colored flowers, wild raspberries and black berries, a whisper of a river, artful array of rugged and smooth rocks, mountains all around and clear blue skies overhead.

For all its thoughtless randomness, it was the grandest, most beautiful garden I have ever laid my eyes on.

And I thought, even the remotest, most desolate places are not forgotten by God.  He takes care of the littlest things in the most loving way.  

He craves to take care of us.  

The key is simply to let Him in ... and "He will make all things beautiful in His time."







Thursday, February 09, 2017

Jump Off Point

I saw this photo on the internet a couple of weeks ago and it made me crack up.


Then it made me think.

How many things and experiences have I foregone or put off because of constraints that are merely in my head?

So, I did the most rational thing to do at that point.  I texted my friend and our conversation went something like this ...

Me:  I want to hike.
Him:  You know I thought about that, too, this week.  I'm just worried you might not be ready yet.
Me:  I feel judged.
Him:  ...
Me:  I will never be ready. I can do more cardio ...
Him:  Ok.
Me:  I want to do more hikes.
Him:  Ok.

A couple of days later, we were booked for Mt. Batulao (via Trail Adventours).  And "Amazing" doesn't begin to describe the entire experience.  It served as my Jump Off Point.


For someone whose days are constantly running together, the hike was a good way to slow down and breathe (fresh air, no less!).  In between serious & senseless conversations and huffing & puffing, I got to do some thinking.  These were a few of my musings.

Darkness helps us appreciate the faintest light.  

This one is a reinforcement of what the banker astronomer (who brought his big telescope to CFA Family Camping) said the previous night, "I used to be afraid of the dark, but now I love the dark --- because I can see the stars better with it."  

Starting off our hike in the wee hours of that morning, I couldn't agree with him more. The scene was breathtaking:  on both sides, citylights as far as the eyes could see; and overhead, the stars shone brightly as if trying to outshine each other. I am still "killing" myself for not having the presence of mind to take a photo.  But, in a sense, it was a natural reaction.  The few minutes we had that view was not enough to soak in its grandeur.  Why waste those precious few seconds fishing out my phone?

The first few seconds of darkness is always heart-stopping.  But just sit (or stand) still, blink a couple of times and let the stars reveal themselves.  There will always be much much more than you thought there ever were; and some, you will realize, have always been visible but you have taken for granted when your suns blinded you.

In between Huffs & Puffs, Look Up!

There were times when the trail got particularly difficult.  I trudged on looking down, concentrating on the trail.  And then I heard someone, "Wow!".  I looked up towards the direction she was looking at and caught my breath.  We were on "top of the world" and the sun was starting to peek through the horizon.  I looked around me.  It was 360 degrees of picture-perfect view.  From then on, I resolved to stop focusing too much on the trail and instead enjoy the sights more.

So, in between your huffing and puffing, look up or you'll miss the amazing view!  It is, afterall, the entire point of the hike; the only way you can come out of  it richer from the experience vs. resentful and b!%@&ing about it.

Risk the Occasional Trips and Slip-ups for the Full Experience

Linked to the above point, I soon realized, that in order to appreciate the view, I had to occasionally look up from my furrowed-brow focus on the trail ... and risk tripping, slipping or even bumping onto the person in front (thankfully, it's often just my friend's backpack taking the hit).  What is the point of coming out unscathed if you didn't get to experience the climb fully, all senses engaged?  Besides, those moments can only result to:  comic relief, quick stops, icebreakers and new friends.

Giving Up is NOT An Option. NOPE.

Mt. Batulao is categorized as an easy hike suitable for beginners, so, when I asked our trail guide how many peaks we were going to, I nearly fell off the cliff when he calmly replied, "12".  Then he made a sweeping gesture across the mountain range, finishing with a flourish at the highest peak, "That's where we're going." Then he smiled broadly, clearly proud of himself.  And I silently screamed and fainted inside.  I looked back at where we came from, assessing my options.  There is no way a helicopter can pick me up.  Nope.  Giving up is NOT an option.

And, boy, am I glad I didn't!

Sometimes you find yourself on a forlorn-obviously-less-traveled path with no visible forks or detour.  If there is no other way, then keep at it.  You only know it's bad based on the few hundred meters you can see.  But that's not where the path ends ... so you don't really know if it's bad, do you?  When there are no turns, trust that you are on the right path.  Be patient.  Keep on.  You'll be amazed at where it will take you. (Believe me, I know!)

The Highest (and Best) Peak is the Hardest to Climb (Duh!)

We took a photo at Peak 1, after which, I said,  "Peak 1.  11 more to go.  Let's do this!".  An hour and 10 million years later, I said to no one in particular, "Uhm ... I wonder when we'll get to Peak 2.  I don't think we'll reach Peak 12 at this rate."  No one in particular replied to me ... even when I asked the same thing about another hour later.  Then we came to a series of steep climbs with ropes to help us pull ourselves up.  And just when I thought I'd used up my last ounce of strength (and breath), we broke through the summit.  It was 360 degrees of lush greens, clear blue sky, soft warm sun and cool gently playful wind.  "It was worth it" doesn't quite cut it.  It was fulfilling, exhilarating, liberating, all rolled into one.

Stretched. Expanded. It was a personal breakthrough which made me feel that nothing, absolutely nothing, is impossible or insurmountable.

Choose Your Company Well

Hiking and being in Nature's embrace is a soul activity for me.  It both silences me and makes me come alive.  The Mt. Batulao hike was my first major hike, so it was sort of a make or break thing for me.  That is why choosing the person I will share the experience with was critical.  These are my criteria:

  • Someone who is enthusiastic and will make time to go on the same hike with me
  • Someone I can trust my life with
  • Someone I am comfortable to be around with in my own skin (stinky ugly and all)
  • Someone who knows when to engage me and to give me space (Net, someone in whose company I can still have precious "Me" time)
  • Someone who complements me, whose strengths compensate my weaknesses and vice versa
  • Someone I work and partner well with, who can lead or follow as the situation calls for
  • Someone who gets me; understands and knows how to deal with my quirks
  • Someone who can be honest with me and whose honesty I value enough to accept
  • Someone who knows when to push me and when to cut me some slack
  • Someone who will stick with me till the end 
Him:  "I think we should take the trike from here"
Me:  "But we're almost there.  Let's go all the way!"

30 minutes and > 1 km of walking (or crawling) later

Me:  "Uhm ... I'm sorry.  I thought it was just a short distance."
Him:  "It's okay.  We're almost there."

Use Lip Balm with UV Protection (And put some on at the start of the trek)

I got a windburn.


It goes without saying, that the trek was a success.  I made it!  We're planning our next one already. And we promised to make time for at least one per quarter.  Like the true corporate slaves that we are, we even debriefed and noted down our learnings, so that we're better prepared for the next one.

Try it.  Take a hike!

Special thanks to St. Raphael, the Archangel, for the beautifully trek-perfect weather!